[it's been a hell of a day. whatever bravery she was holding onto when she first started talking dissolves nearly instantly, and behind it is a steady stream of tears.]

I'm ... [give her a minute.]

... When I made this contract, we didn't know what that really meant ... that Kyubey was ripping out our souls and putting them in - [she closes her fist around her Soul Gem, though she can't conceal the glow, and brings her other hand to her face as if in pain. can she even tell where it's coming from? is her body actually feeling pain, or is it just the gem in her hand causing it? filling in the blanks for her? Madoka couldn't begin to guess.]

I wanted this magic so I could help other people ... But nobody told me where it actually comes from - every time I use it, I'm ... I'm destroying myself.