I don't want to talk about it now. [That's almost immediate after Dave says that first part because...he doesn't. He doesn't want to talk about this when he's focusing on a bigger problem and when it's his own shit to handle. Maybe that, too, makes him hypocritical.
So instead he's up against the wall and he's staring at a point on Dave's knee instead of at his face while he digests the rest.]
Movies. He made SBaHJ movies that were kind of a huge thing. [He shakes his head before there's a very quiet sigh.] What would even be the right way to handle this shit? It's not like anybody left us a playbook on all of this right next to my ectobiologist suit or anything. I. [...there's a pause, awkward and uncertain for a moment.] I can't always be there. Neither can Rose. And I can't stop things from colliding again like they did by explaining this to Dirk because that's not really my place either? You're my best friend and it's stupid for me or Rose or anybody else to tell other people stuff you tell us.
[He can only assume that Dave's probably told Rose. The importance of Rose Lalonde has never been lost on him. Not after what Dave did for Rose. Not after the two of them went down together for each other.]
I think...he's less awkward with me because I'm the furthest point of contact. So I mean. Maybe I can figure this out, but I know you don't know how to handle it. That was pretty obvious. I told you that days ago and it's still true. I think maybe he would do stuff like that even if you were not in the picture. I still can't figure out the stuff with him and Jake, and Dirk and I have talked enough times that I think I can sort of figure him out but it's not as easy as talking to you or Rose. And it probably never will be. So...if I don't get to blame myself, I'm not really sure you should get to either. But I also am not sure what to do. [He's waiting for permission, maybe. Maybe that's it? A sign from Dave that he can take some of the burden and fix things here. He had wanted to fix things back then and then the Strilondes took the Tumor and ran. He's slightly alarmed that DAve is even telling him this, but he knows better, aware that this is what it means to be friends with someone and be as supportive as possible. At the same time, he has to wonder if this is enough. If this keeps happening and hurting them both. Is it enough? Is it even his place to fix this, too? What falls in his domain of fixing anymore, anyway? Fuck.]
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So instead he's up against the wall and he's staring at a point on Dave's knee instead of at his face while he digests the rest.]
Movies. He made SBaHJ movies that were kind of a huge thing. [He shakes his head before there's a very quiet sigh.] What would even be the right way to handle this shit? It's not like anybody left us a playbook on all of this right next to my ectobiologist suit or anything. I. [...there's a pause, awkward and uncertain for a moment.] I can't always be there. Neither can Rose. And I can't stop things from colliding again like they did by explaining this to Dirk because that's not really my place either? You're my best friend and it's stupid for me or Rose or anybody else to tell other people stuff you tell us.
[He can only assume that Dave's probably told Rose. The importance of Rose Lalonde has never been lost on him. Not after what Dave did for Rose. Not after the two of them went down together for each other.]
I think...he's less awkward with me because I'm the furthest point of contact. So I mean. Maybe I can figure this out, but I know you don't know how to handle it. That was pretty obvious. I told you that days ago and it's still true. I think maybe he would do stuff like that even if you were not in the picture. I still can't figure out the stuff with him and Jake, and Dirk and I have talked enough times that I think I can sort of figure him out but it's not as easy as talking to you or Rose. And it probably never will be. So...if I don't get to blame myself, I'm not really sure you should get to either. But I also am not sure what to do. [He's waiting for permission, maybe. Maybe that's it? A sign from Dave that he can take some of the burden and fix things here. He had wanted to fix things back then and then the Strilondes took the Tumor and ran. He's slightly alarmed that DAve is even telling him this, but he knows better, aware that this is what it means to be friends with someone and be as supportive as possible. At the same time, he has to wonder if this is enough. If this keeps happening and hurting them both. Is it enough? Is it even his place to fix this, too? What falls in his domain of fixing anymore, anyway? Fuck.]