I know that now. I just...I don't know. When I was dating Vic it was a lot easier not to think about my dad being gone or missing music and focus on social standing and sports and being liked enough so people wouldn't leave. I wanted to be enough.

[This is hilariously deep and soul-baring for being on horseback but whatever.]

But yeah. It is. [There's a grin.] I feel a lot more like myself now. Whoever that was and is supposed to be. It just fits better.