this isn't about naoto or telling naoto I know naoto would be able to handle it, and i know I'll tell her eventually
of course I'd want her to tell me the same, but I'd also understand her not wanting to, at least, right away
my problem isnt sharing this with naoto, its other me, who is kind of normal me, threw herself off a building and its raising a lot of questions about me as a person i think that i am a lot less "genki" (thats an anime trope look it up) than i play myself up to be do you remember the awful way i acted in the hospital? i think that maybe that's the self I'm constantly trying to hide. for the past two months almost I've been holding in this disturbing sadness and lying to myself about my feelings, my demeanor...
I'm not saying you're like that but I'm telling you because i know you'll understand and you've already seen me at my worst, when i was angry and spiteful and wanted to die
you're the only one sorry that thrust that upon you, but its true
i don't want to talk about naoto or about my relationship, its not about that, it's just about me
no subject
this isn't about naoto or telling naoto
I know naoto would be able to handle it, and i know I'll tell her eventually
of course I'd want her to tell me the same, but I'd also understand her not wanting to, at least, right away
my problem isnt sharing this with naoto, its other me, who is kind of normal me, threw herself off a building and its raising a lot of questions about me as a person
i think that i am a lot less "genki" (thats an anime trope look it up) than i play myself up to be
do you remember the awful way i acted in the hospital?
i think that maybe that's the self I'm constantly trying to hide.
for the past two months almost I've been holding in this disturbing sadness and lying to myself about my feelings, my demeanor...
I'm not saying you're like that
but I'm telling you because i know you'll understand
and you've already seen me at my worst, when i was angry and spiteful and wanted to die
you're the only one
sorry that thrust that upon you, but its true
i don't want to talk about naoto or about my relationship, its not about that, it's just about me
i just want to talk to my friend john