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JOHN EGBERT

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i don't know, like a day?
does that matter? i am not in love with them anymore and in hindsight now i am not sure if i ever was. but i definitely thought i was.

we talked about being in love before
you said you thought so but actually that you hadnt been i remember

but ok
the answer is still fuck no
ive never had a crush on someone that fast not like you mean
and ive definitely never fallen for someone in a day
took me the better part of seventeen years for jade
the better part of a year and change for tz
and the better part of three years for someone else
and years of memories with you and some time here
before it was anything other than wow i want to be best friends and braid your hair and paint your nails
also one of those instances just included intense dislike for eons so lmao
i dont really do snap crushes beyond yeah this person is chill and maybe ill flirt
but like
idk wanting to do anything about it is a different level
i wouldnt call anything ive felt for anyone on day one love
one day feelings are more like and lust and generally nothing serious

also i didnt actually "love" one of the four people ive dated so theres that
and one of them was more
possibly intense friendship feelings i misjudged?
or just that awkward moment where you realize actually
youre way happier with someone as friends and adding all the romance bullshit just makes you feel ill at ease
and like you lost something rather than gained something

well maybe that was two of them
fuck yeah ok my track record is a thing and why am i discussing it with you

as far as youre concerned lets pretend you think im not a romantic disaster thats preferable

that's still true btw. i hadn't. i just thought i was.
i am pretty sure i know who the intense dislike was.
anyway i read all of it and acknowledge it but also.
i kind of like you as a romantic disaster because it's just who you are.
and i love you.

yeah
well
i love you too and shit
for the record its not like the times i wanted to switch back to friends
although i do kind of want to shove you off of things sometimes because i feel embarrassed
look at me keeping that impulse in check

wait hold on what have i done that you wanted to shove me off stuff?
that is incredibly rude and i am proud of your impulse control.
it is better than mine.

like kissed me and told me you loved me and shit
its the same impulse that makes me want to laugh in your face whenever something terrible happens
youre sweet and i want to shove you off something because i dont know what the fuck else to do
usually it ends up translating into nervous laughter or kissing you instead
or staring like a lunatic

god wait fuck ERASE all of that from your memory

lmfao.
absolutely not? i am screencapping this and everything.
...and anyway i have gotten used to it. i just kind of assumed it was normal at this rate which i am not sure what that then says about either of us.