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[windeity]

JOHN EGBERT

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[robitussin]

not really. i mean... it’s weird, idk. i know it’s about some weird past version of myself and not really about me, but it’s tough to deal with. is it weird that i feel like i have to deal with something that never actually happened to me? maybe i’m just rambling now

but anyways it’s probably no surprise that i remembered something awful and birthday related

[windeity]

even if you are rambling, no, i don't think so. i feel like that too sometimes. it always feels awkward.

seriously? what's next, a bad christmas?
what kind of something awful?

[robitussin]

the kind of awful where my past mom brought out a cake when we were sitting down to dinner because it would have been my past older brother’s birthday if he wasn’t dead

so... that happened

[windeity]

i have. many, many questions.
first of all being what the fuck.
and second of all why do all of your awful memories somehow come from your past mom?

[robitussin]

what the fuck is a good starter question to be fair

also i don’t know. she sucks. past me sucks.

[windeity]

i am beginning to think that past you sucks because your past mom was a trainwreck.
no explanation for celebrating the birthday of your deceased brother?

[robitussin]

maybe my past mom is a trainwreck because her son died

noooope no explanation at all. but everyone else clearly thought it was messed up, past me told them they're fucked up and left and my dad took the cake away from my mom and my boyfriend (who he was there btw to witness this bullshit because of course) followed me when i left

[windeity]

maybe.
but when did he die? like...do you remember anything about a brother before this?
never mind, that does not matter.

is this the apple-weed boyfriend? at least that is one good quality.
so your dad isn't...insane. or something. he's just kind of a jerk too.

[robitussin]

in that memory i said it was before i was born so there's that

it is the same boyfriend. and yeah my dad seems more put together than my mom at least even if he's kind of a dick. although i've only remembered one thing about him so maybe he was just having a bad day that one time and he's actually fine

[windeity]

yikes.
it is possible your dad is totally cool. i really hope your dad is totally cool?
but the dead brother thing is a concern.
so...no actual house ghost?

[robitussin]

i hope so too

yeah. metaphorical house ghost?? which is somehow way worse. jesus.

[windeity]

how do you even get rid of something like that?

[robitussin]

therapy?

[windeity]

i am guessing that is a thing your family wasn't up for though.

[robitussin]

i remember my dad mentioning my mom's treatment

which probably explains a lot in hindsight

[windeity]

so your mom was kind of crazy because of a dead sibling.
a few things make sense now, yes.
...sorry.
but you don't remember treatment for what?

[robitussin]

not your fault

idk what exactly it was but my dad said she was getting treatment three times a week so presumably it was for that

[windeity]

apparently three times a week was not enough if that's what happened.
but your mom HERE is fine, right? all of that is fine.

[robitussin]

yeah

but that kinda makes it weirder in a way, you know?

[windeity]

how so? in a "what changed" kind of way? or a "when is the other shoe going to drop" kind of way?

[robitussin]

like

idk if it was more familiar i would know how to deal with it? not that i can really deal with it because it wasn't about me. and not that i want that kind of thing to be familiar? idk

maybe i'm not making sense

[windeity]

...no i think i kind of get it.
you know these are things you dealt with once and so it's like "maybe i should know what i'm doing if that person really is me" but at the same time since it is not you you're lost.
but you get stuck remembering this stuff anyway.
right?

[robitussin]

yeah.

also her coping methods probably sucked based on the weed apple so there's also that which also doesnt help

[windeity]

i am pretty sure that was not her only coping method natalie, come on.

[robitussin]

yeah but it doesn't really speak well to the rest of them