I wouldn't blame her. [And the problem is he absolutely means it. Mewpac decides it's appropriate to roll on her back and stare up at Dave cutely.] You're good with her.
Maybe it wouldn't be bad? I have a lot I have not even watched since I bought them. [But he tilts his head a bit.] What about Mewpac then?
[He doesn't ask "can't or won't" even if he wants to.] ...I like the idea of having my own kids in theory, but it's just in theory. Pets might be fine though.
You'd be a good father. [ it's easy and out of his mouth before he registers that qualifies as something he shouldn't say. so he just shrugs. ] And she's your cat, really.
[ and maybe that's the reasoning dave uses to validate his option to hog the cat. it's not like he's actually responsible for love and care; he gives it but it isn't his thing to fuck up.
[...there's a slight laugh and he relaxes for a fraction of time.] Maybe. But that would require like. Dating and whatever. So. [A shrug.]
Technically she is Rose's and she came to me. But she doesn't like to cuddle with me as much as she likes you for whatever reason. [Because Dave hogs the cat and he knows and he doesn't care. He gets up to grab his laptop from under the bed again, bringing it back to life to scroll through some movie files.] I guess, in a way, she's ours? Since you also feed her and shit.
Datin' and whatever will happen eventually for you. But it doesn't actually have to. None of our guardians had did the "dating or whatever" thing in order to acquire children.
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apparently grandpa did but none of them know about that so whatever ]
...considering Jade's guardian was a dog, I would hope not. [A joke to lighten the mood? Sure.] But I know. We kind of just showed up out of nowhere because I created us. Which is still weird to think about.
[And then, he considers.] My guardian was my dad, wasn't he.
Her guardian was technically her grandpa first. [ a mild correction, and one that doesn't fucking matter, except he'd always been jealous of her. of john. of rose.
the question isn't an easy one but he lapses back into no fight at all. ]
Oh. [And whether the oh is to Jade's grandpa or his dad or anything else he doesn't quite clarify.] I remember all of the slime-cloning business and how we are related and everything even if it sounds dumb. And I remember I was looking for him. Because of the Medium. All of our guardians showed up in the Medium too?
[ a shrug that might be a yes or no. john's already had enough out of dave tonight about home, and none of it has made him happy.
he can't help saying: ]
He would have done anything for you. [ because it is the kind of thing he would have wanted to know, had bro actually given half a fuck.
and it's probably the wrong thing to say, because dave's priorities are never quite where they should be when he lays them out next to other people's. ]
[On the other hand, it's a very effective way to shut John up and so he doesn't respond. Not verbally, at least. There's a tentative pause before he nods and picks something on his computer. Tonight's selection is probably a Will Ferrell movie. Anchorman or some shit. He turns the movie on and he lays back again, staring at the screen and staring at the ceiling.]
Cool. [Finally, some acknowledgement and he goes quiet again. He's pretty much sure that when he wakes up, Dave won't be there. He's pretty sure he messed up, and he's pretty sure he doesn't know how to make things better. And he's pretty sure this is actually really the worst things to happen.
Eventually his eyes are half-lidded, not quite asleep but not responding. Dave can keep all of the blankets and the cat, too. That is really all he can do anymore.]
[ it is the confirmation dave already had that he shouldn't be allowed to say words, anyway. usually he would tell john to take the blankets, or some of them, or bitch about the movie, or apologize for speaking at all, but instead he takes the safer route and he simply drops off into silence.
he doesn't sleep and he doesn't drift and he doesn't move at all; he doesn't really watch the film, either, but counts the milliseconds as they drift by and thinks of nothing at all. there's the impulse to grab his phone and pull up an application no one else even has to speak into the void but he kills it like he always does and just lets life continue to happen as he tries to not. ]
[Not confirmation, but he can't argue it since Dave won't talk to him. So he watches the movie and lets everything lapse into silence. Eventually though he does fall asleep. It allows Dave to do whatever he wants.]
[ ok if you think he isn't just going to lie there all night idk what to tell you. he agreed to go somewhere the next day and was blocked on running away what else is there!! not his bed, stripped of everything. maybe his computer chair at his desk with the cat. that's about it though. ]
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...I can put on a movie or something if that's better? [Better than forced conversation that Dave seems to still be monitoring.]
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[ or it's kind of an argument. whatever. ]
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[He doesn't ask "can't or won't" even if he wants to.] ...I like the idea of having my own kids in theory, but it's just in theory. Pets might be fine though.
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[ and maybe that's the reasoning dave uses to validate his option to hog the cat. it's not like he's actually responsible for love and care; he gives it but it isn't his thing to fuck up.
it doesn't make a lot of sense. ]
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Technically she is Rose's and she came to me. But she doesn't like to cuddle with me as much as she likes you for whatever reason. [Because Dave hogs the cat and he knows and he doesn't care. He gets up to grab his laptop from under the bed again, bringing it back to life to scroll through some movie files.] I guess, in a way, she's ours? Since you also feed her and shit.
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Datin' and whatever will happen eventually for you. But it doesn't actually have to. None of our guardians had did the "dating or whatever" thing in order to acquire children.
[ like
apparently grandpa did but none of them know about that so whatever ]
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[And then, he considers.] My guardian was my dad, wasn't he.
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the question isn't an easy one but he lapses back into no fight at all. ]
Yes.
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he can't help saying: ]
He would have done anything for you. [ because it is the kind of thing he would have wanted to know, had bro actually given half a fuck.
and it's probably the wrong thing to say, because dave's priorities are never quite where they should be when he lays them out next to other people's. ]
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Cool. [Finally, some acknowledgement and he goes quiet again. He's pretty much sure that when he wakes up, Dave won't be there. He's pretty sure he messed up, and he's pretty sure he doesn't know how to make things better. And he's pretty sure this is actually really the worst things to happen.
Eventually his eyes are half-lidded, not quite asleep but not responding. Dave can keep all of the blankets and the cat, too. That is really all he can do anymore.]
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he doesn't sleep and he doesn't drift and he doesn't move at all; he doesn't really watch the film, either, but counts the milliseconds as they drift by and thinks of nothing at all. there's the impulse to grab his phone and pull up an application no one else even has to speak into the void but he kills it like he always does and just lets life continue to happen as he tries to not. ]
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