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[windeity]

JOHN EGBERT

"We came, we saw, we kicked its ass."

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also casually puts his font here for tagging not on my laptop whoops
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normal font too!

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Comments

[windeity]

i know what genki means ayano.
but yeah. i get what you are saying.
it's fine, i understand.
trying to figure out where the difference is between the you from back then and the you now and why the you back then did stuff without context fucking sucks.
so. here is the thing.
how do you feel now when you think about the fact that maybe you are sad instead of trying to lie about it?

[kagepuro]

it must be really bad for you, considering the weird place your other you is from

I feel sad, when i think about it
like i pretended so hard that things were better after october and that made it real
but the glass was shattered
and now i feel like

like


um

it wasn't real happiness
I'm happy when I'm with naoto, legitimately

but it makes me realize how false all of my other "happiness" was

[windeity]

you know it is also okay not to be 100% happy 100% of the time right? like that is a thing you know.
i think even if people think of you as genki or whatever that is an unfair expectation since then you have to be happy all the time and that is way too much pressure for anybody.
i'm not saying you SHOULD be sad all the time. but i am saying that at least recognizing it is something to help work toward maybe figuring out why.
maybe the other you never got the chance to figure it out and felt that was the only way out.
i would rather it not get to that point here.